okay i was quite irritated and annoyed by this stupid computer just now.

i typed one whole chunk of words, highlighted them, pressed CTRL + C, then attempted CTRL + V many times. but to no avail, nothing appearred!

okay i shall not talk about negative stuffs anymore..

anyway, central twos had our "oh my gosh" overnight christmas party at east coast park yesterday night, till today morning. i must say that the games committee did a really grand job for the games and all. i can really see their blood-sweat effort that was put into the planning of the games! the ideas were very new and fresh, (well, most of them). i think they really deserve to be applauded for this!!

thank you..
stephanie, hannah, carolyn, leon and samuel!

heh! anyway i really enjoyed myself last night. though there werent many people, but i can see that everyone of us (if not, most of us) are much more bonded to one another. and i've definitely got to know more about my brothers and sisters in christ!

anyway, i think i love the games very much, especially the station games. we played another version of captains ball; using tennis balls and a plastic bowl, different version of pictionary, tarzan gorilla and jane, "haha leon", rubber band telematch, waterbombs and treasure hunt.

the bold ones are my favourite-st games!!

i think the haha leon one is the funniest of all. everyone was so eager to participate. there was such a great uproar lah. and if you heard how ethan SCREAMT, you will roll off your chair and laugh until your bladder burst lah! it's seriously super funny. i think he tried to mimick my voice if im not wrong. LOL. ethan, that was a good try, but you're just making a fool of yourself! HAHA! oops. (:

yeh. the rubber band telematch was fun as well. it's fun seeing how the people pass the rubber bands using straws, and how in the world i manage to suck up the rubberband water when all the rest cant. but it's okay lah. guess i was either too thirsty or i was laughing too much i suck up some water. but o wells, it taste like ice lemon tea anyway, not any kind of rubber water. (:

treasure hunt! o man, it reminded me of how hurting my butt was. the seat was so small lah. im not saying my butt is big, but compared to the other seats, mine was considered quite small. boohoo. stupid uncle give me such a small seat. it was really fun going around looking stations after stations, solving puzzles after puzzles, looking for clues after clues. i think im quite a free loader. LOL. i feel quite bad leh, cause i left qianjin and yunkai (the two guys in our sub-group) to look for the clues, while angela guard the bicycles, and i turn in circles. but well, thank God for you guys, you people really did a great job finding the clues and leading us! (:

initially the games were supposed to end by 3am, but because of some delays here and there, games ended at 7am. sobs sobs. i was looking forward to authentic fellowship and ethan's char siew story. but it's okay! ethan, you can go home and practice somemore, until you master it. then you can tell us the story at clarke quay! better ambience and atmosphere! HAHA!

went cycling from one jetty to another jetty in the morning. lied down on the bench at the bigger jetty and almost didnt want to go back. the wind was so soothing eh. i was lying there, felt so pig. so got june to longbang me back. thanks june! although we almost fell. (:

oh yaa. dan is such a dangerous rider! he cannot ride straight okay. he goes left and right and left and right and right and left and right. eeeks. OH YAH! yunkai and him almost killed me!! and yes, i almost died! i already had one foot in the grave already eh. this is how the story goes..

i was about to make a u-turn, and i remembered rather vividly that i ensured that it was safe to do so. and so i made a u-turn, then suddenly there was this very loud screeching sound, and yes, that came from the both of them. they were chiong-ing and they just did a jam brake. bah! i was directly perpendicular to them eh. they cut into the lane, which they are not supposed to be on. get it? lol. what if the brakes arent working, what would happen to me ah? eeeew. i wouldnt dare think of that. i only know that dan will have no more chance to beat me in badminton. (: cause i'll be either crippled or dead. yah. but i still thank God that the bicycle's brakes are working and also dan's fast reaction. hmm. so dan isnt such a bad biker after all. LOL. yah. but i truly thank God that im still alive here, in one piece. i don want to meet Jesus yet, i still want to do many more things for Him. (:

mm. jarvin and leon fell while cutting dan's bicycle wheels. the whole thing was quite dramatic. like, leon fell and turned 180 degrees and got a scratch on his elbows. but jarvin's one was quite serious lah. let's just pray that God will heal his wrist asap so that he can serve and glorify God efficiently. i believe that God can perform healing miracles.

Dear Lord,

i trust in your healings hands to be upon jarvin that he may be healed of the pain in the wrist that he may be able to serve you and glorify you. Lord i know that with you, nothing is impossible, for you are a God of wonders and a God of miracles.

amen!

anyway im still feeling so hyper, even now. i havent slept a wink since yesterday. (: yay! but i fell asleep in the bus on the way back home, a short half an hour sleep. almost didnt feel like alighting. i think i looked horrible and disfigured in the bus, but it's okay lah. my beauty sleep is more important right? when i reached home, to my horror, nobody's at home! my mum and brother went my aunt's condo for christmas party. and i cant get my beauty sleep. so here i am, blogging. arrrghh. it's okay. im not really that tired anyway. (: i can still laugh scream jump and shout!

thank God for the fruitful time that we had together!

this is the day that the Lord has made,
i will rejoice and be glad in it!

discouragement

discouragements are just setbacks, and God allows it to happen, because He wants us to mature.

it seems so easy for us to say that. but when you really experience discouragement, it's a totally different thing. and the feeling is so lousy.



eeew.



i think God has His plans for me. i guess maybe now is only the preparation of the harvest. i shall not let discouragements hold me back from moving on with my plans.

dear godly dad,

i know that everything happens for a reason and you allowed discouragements to happen, because you have the best for me, and you want me to mature. dad it's not easy to overcome this, but help me understand the plans you have for me, help me know that you're always here to comfort me and that you're always with me. i love you dad!

ever will i seek you,
your child.

it's christmas soon! and guess what i've got..

christmas wishlist!
- that skirt from hula & co. $36.90
- that black nikespin shoe $100+
- new school shoes nfy
- two more white ankle socks nfy
- happy house pencil case $11.90
- any gorgeous c&k slippers (: nfy
- earrings nfy
- that specs $80+


dear santa,
can you puh-leeease be nice and grant me at least one of the above! i've been a good girl lately. do good to me, santa! it's more blessed to give than to receive!!

congratulations!

danielle (fmps), dawn, yinghan (mgs), yingtian (future crescentian) and hongwei. (:

5 crossed the line of faith!

anyway, danielle is michelle's and gabrielle's sister!! no wonder i was like, she looks and sounds like gabrielle lah. oh my. and gabrielle and michelle are twins. the elle sisters.

oh. i think everyone really gave their all for comfirmation. cb5 hit 23 for comfirmation, 25 for service!! wooots. let's do even better on thurs! let's trust God for a greater harvest. (:

anyhow. christmas production one was great. im sure it touched the hearts of many. and it's evident that many crossed the line of faith yesterday. there was this flow of people going down to the front of stage during altar call. hmm. one of my sheep rededicated her life to Jesus again. and it really touches my heart, to see people sliding back to God.

played games after service. thank God for hannah and samuel. (: you peeps did a great job leading. i almost had cold feet leading announcements. had some screw ups here and there. haha! still glad that it's over. (:

ethan went shopping for christmas gifts. heard that he spent $50 at mini toons. lol. went clarke quay with ethan samantha esther angela elise stephen freddie and dan after that. then ethan told us the storyline of the shutter. me and esther were super freaked out lah!!

eeeks. it's HANGING on your BACK! be careful.

stayed over at esther's place. talked and pigged out until 5am. went granny's house when i woke up. man, im not very sure if i can go for the friday thing leh. AHH. nevermind. i ask esther go sweet talk my parents. ahhaa! (:

goodbye!

looking forward to carolling..

just had my dinner.
mummy cooked bah kut teh.
yummy-licious. (:

anyway. did i mention that my teva slippers got stolen! im super dissed by whoever stole my slippers okay! i totally despise that person! and that person had better be glad i called that person a person. [nevermind if you don understand].

i shall change the subject.

okay. talk about yesterday's birthday celebration for elise, dan and angela.

i was in charge of games. but i guess i screwed everything up lah!! it was really, so discouraging. cause me and esther planned everything, and got so excited and high. then it turned out to be a disaster, and some things even have to be omitted out. BAH.

it's okay! mcg was rather well done!! considering the time factor, and the sudden change of plan. i think esther and june did a wonderful job planning everything. it's not easy, but you guys have made it! (: i think the drama team also did a wonderful job! everyone acted well, remembered their lines, remained calm and cool. (: oh man. you guys just simply rockk so much. love yaa all.

ayye. it's thursday. COMFIRMATION.
i don know. but im really really scared leh. im just scared that my contacts will just turn me down, or worse, try to shun me. I DON KNOW! i don know, is it because i havent been working hard enough? is it because i did not put in any effort?

ahhh. i have nothing much to say. i think i better start inviting people now. good bye.

hello.

back from shepherding vienne and min, drama practice (for thurs mcg) and badminton.

i felt quite bad leh. cause i was kind of serious during shepherding. i guess it was because of my adrenaline rush. hahaa. sounds dumb. but, im really excited to see souls being won, people crossing that line of faith this saturday! i believe that God's gonna do a great work in the people's life. (:

anyway. this thing suddenly came to me as a thought.

i guess i should go talk to my shepherd about it.

anyway. i think i should learn to evaluate my day every night. it's a good habit you know? it's like counting God's blessings. yaa. and i think in this way, i learn something new everyday as well. it's very interesting you know. i think God never fails to amaze me of interesting ways where i can grow to be like Him. (:

speak to build up; not to tear down.
speak highly of others.

okay. i want to speak highly of others. i don want to put them down in any way. im trying my very best to avoid putting others down in a way or other.

yay yay yay!

the power of words

i've come to realise the power of words. how just one word can hurt a person for a very very very long period of time, or even a lifetime. others may seem strong on the outside, but inside, they might be very emotional and sensitive, so we wont know whether these words would actually hurt them or not.

stones and sticks may hurt my bone,
but names will never hurt me.

[not sure about the last sentence] many of us may have heard that many times. but you'll never know what it's like to be condemned/insulted until you've experienced it. yaa. so let's do unto others what you want others to do to you. i shall learn not to use discriminative words on people anymore. i want to build others up! no more the meanie old me! (:

and also, because girls and guys are created so differently, that sometimes we misinterprete what the opposite gender says. so i think we got to be very careful with our speech and all. yupp. thank God for this fruitful day. (:

it's a happy day, and i thank God for the weather!

happy birthday genny!

haha. had a great time celebrating angela's birthday yesterday. well. haha, i feel so devilish. (: im amazed i could come up with such a plan. haha. thank God for all the good actresses in cb5, and not forgetting some of the central cees, esther and phoebe. (:

anyway. i had a fruitful time sharing with samantha yesterday night. yupp. we had this heart-to-heart talk. and we began to share deep about our lives and stuffs. yaa. i don know how to put it. but this sort of bonded our sisterhood.

anyway, you know the feeling whereby you cheered somebody up, or turn somebody's frown into a smile? it's really encouraging to see that lah. i mean it's like, wow, God actually used someone like me to encourage that person? yaa. thank God for using me in little stuffs like this. (:

wooots. anyway, i've made a challenge to myself. and that is, to bless others! hahaa. it's really good to bless others you know. like after you blessed somebody, you feel like you're in heaven? hahaa! this sounds stupid, but then it's true!! yeppp.

i am blessed,
blessed to be a blessing,
i am blessed!

back from central camp!

heh! i feel hyper now. though i only had like, 4 hours of sleep in two days? i somehow managed to survive lah. haha. was so zombified. anyway. on tuesday, we had training. the hall was occupied, so we went to the gym. did workouts, then footwork. kopp-ed some crystal jade pastry from mr dicky. (:

(o wells. i cant really remember the flow, so it'll be kind of messy.)

went to meet min for shepherding at tampines. had our lunch at mcdonalds. then settled down at swensens for shepherding. (: then met up with the rest. haha. the bus journey to the campsite was so entertaining lah! got to know more people. haha. nicole's so funny lah. cant stand her. lol. i almost wee-ed on my pants, while listening to her jokes can!!

haha. had our very own central singapore idol. haha! tifen's so cutee! she acted as daphne, and she purposely sang in an act cute manner! haha. we even had commercial breaks, advertisements. lol! and i love the special item that we (idols) presented! ahh haa! we danced real stupidly to "superstar". (:

was wide awake through the night. me, esther, joanne and sam chatted till morn. did not get to bathe! so that means. i didnt bathe at all on tues. (: i wonder how bad i smelt then. lol.

praise and worship was great. and it will always be great! haha!

had station games in the afternoon. i like derrick's station the best! and that's where we (spongebobbers) performed the best as well. it's, dodge bomb, i think. ahh haa. yay! the five of us were alive (the second round). threee cheers! the second one was choonyee's station. the one with the hula hoop thing, you know? yeah. got so wet after the game ah! cause we can do whatever we want with the water bombs after the game ended. x( boooo. but it's o kay. cause i enjoyed it. i had my chance of throwing bombs at people too! (: but i miss, most of the times. hahaa!

hmphh! i think the game committee did a great job for the games! thank God for them! claps* heh heh. puaylin's and raphael's station was kind of violent though. joanne's station was fun as well. (: i was the first one to die lah. thanks to june. boohoo!

had mega war game. died seven times. yes! seven. yeahh. im in the league of the goody two shoes. and we won! haha.

hmm. im feeling kind of dreamy right now. haha. im chatting with nicole au now. hahaa. will continue in time to come! (:

signs off,
sinyee

okay people, im back. (:
the time now is, 12.06pm!
so, where was i?

oh. during the war game i felt so dreamy lah. i felt as if i wasnt myself. i guess it was because i didnt slept the day before. haha. xueping's voice was so sexy! and olivia thought i was 16! heh. (:

played captains ball with the c2 girls and nicole. felt so lethargic. and i was the defender for a few rounds! hahaa! breakthrough for me. wanted to stay up for the night. but was too zonked out. so i went up to rest, lied on the bed, asked joanne to bring some food up for me. by the time she came up, i was already so soundly asleep. haha. bleaghh. so i missed my gluttony session!! and the rest were playing captains ball! and no one woke me up too!! wahh. feel so deprived of food and fun! ha haaa.

hmm. did qt with my cg the next day. then c2 girls went tampines food court to eat. me and joanne ate fried fish bee hoon! haha. the fish looked so. eeeeks, and it tastes disgustingly aweful lah! but the soup is nice still. yeah. slept in the mrt. then went angela's house, together with weiting, joanne and esther. chatted, then slept for 2hours. haha. and i don know why. all of us kept bombing!! you know, bomb! and esther was so pigg lah! haha. she snoozed and snoozed in bed. went home at 6pm. took my dinner. no one was at home. so i went online. blogged. posted the first half ytd, and posting this, now. slept at 1230 yesterday. woke up at 1130 today. haha so pig. nevermind lah. at least im not sleep deprived now. (:

okay. time to wash up! (: seeyaa.

someone please tell me im handsome!! (:

i totally love my new hair cut!
it stands, okay!
haha. though i had a different opinion after that hair cut.
but i think it's good to have a change once in a while lah.

hmm. conference was so refreshing, and so life changing. im so glad i didnt missed it. (: i have learnt, and i want, to lay my foundation strong, so that God can use me for greater things. praise and worship was wonderful. sermon was impactful. i want to be a man of only one book. and yes, that's the bible! yeah. during altar call, i somehow just couldnt hold back my tears. i want to build my foundation strong, i want to give up everything to God, i want to have a compassionate heart for the people, such that His will may be done.

and because He lives
i can face tomorrow
because He lives
all fear is gone
because i know
i know He holds the future
and life is worth the living
just because He lives

im back.
it feels just great to be back in spore.
the tour to desaru, kota tinggi was okay lah.
i miss service!
you know, miss?

ah well. badminton camp was alright too.
it's so super slack lah.
the teachers are like, so nice?!
they actually bought us snacks in the middle of the night.
had bloated meals.
watched the ncc doing some don know what thing.
it looks like, they are evacuating from some place or what.
so we thought, maybe there's a bomb, that's why they're running.
walked around in the middle of night with nicole, eunice, annie and lydiana.
played bball using netball too. and the girls were so paranoid!
one person scream, and the others went "ahhhhhhhh!" too.
bweehh.
and qizhong's so timid! heh.
he got scared by miss thio!?
wahahhas! (:

oh yah!
an experience i had when i was in malaysia's mcdonalds.
me: errm. can i have two large fries and one large coke and one iced milo?
person: -repeats my order wrongly-
me: -so i repeated my order-
person: welgjnrgrnvcegjrgnjkrg? translation:: eating here or takeaway?
me: huh?
person: eating here or takeaway?
me: ohhh, takeaway.
a while later..
person: eghweiufnenjgkrenucneg. translation:: i will send the fries to you later.
me: what?!
person: i will send the fries to you later.

oh my gosh. the person spoke to me in malay!?
was that supposed to be an insult or what?

alright. i just woke up.
hmm.
good bye!

i feel like screaming.
for no apparent reason.
but i cant scream.
cause if i do, my family would think that i'm out of my mind.
so i substituted it with a picture, of simpson screaming.

watched incredibles ytd.
it was, pretty okayye lah.
im still on for chucky! (:
so saddist.

had wfl ytd too.
knowing your identity.
learned loads of stuffs.
bla bla bla..

had a meaningful time talking to my heavenly daddy too.
i love you!

oh how i long to come
into the holy place
to behold the lamb
and bow
before the throne of grace
oh how i long
oh how i long
to see you face to face

merry christmas!

sorry. that was just a greeting in advance.
anyway. i'll be temporaily m.i.a from 25-27th november, cause i have to go for my badminton camp from 25-26th november. and will be going desaru on the 27th.
wheee! cant wait for the badminton camp. i wonder what those seniors have in mind. mwahahhas.

well. at the same time, i'll miss the bgr seminar, as well as service! wahhhh! and that's like. so saddd! booo.

anyway. i was clearing my junk yesterday, and i found this songbook which we used during chapel in primary school. so i decided to scan through it. the songs are really cute. the tune and everything. especially the lyrics. (:


Jesus loves the little ones like me me me
Jesus loves the little ones like me me me
little ones like me me me
sat upon his knees
Jesus loves the little ones like me me me

Jesus loves the little ones like you you you

Jesus loves the little ones like them them them

Jesus loves the little ones like me you them

havent been updating recently. many things happened. both good and bad. but God has never failed to amaze me despite all the storms that i went through. (:

anyway. we had central two event at sentosa on thursday. i think it was really memorable. a pity to those who werent there. (: haha. i was in the games comm, together with dan, hannah, samantha and leon. hannah and samantha couldnt make it, so the rest of us met up on tuesday and brainstormed on the games. had a really fun and fruitful time with them. although most of the time i was being tortured, verbally. yeah. the games we thought of was really, wacky? haha. erm. cruel, torturing, evil etc. esp DYL. hiakhiak*

yeah. planned the telematches and everything. even went there to check out the place, when it's drizzling. looked so dumb being the only one carrying a badminton racket in sentosa. was condemned (again) when i used the racket and played with the sand. lol.

hmmm. oh yes! i think God is just so. -words alone cant be enough to describe his goodness- my jaw totally dropped as the day ended. i could only say, "wow, thank you Lord!". God answers prayer! we prayed for the weather, and also for the safety of everyone, and indeed, God granted us beautiful and wonderful weather, and there werent injuries. there were like, only minor cuts?! (:

ohh yahh! the games comm also challenged the rest in the telematch! and we won!! yay! (((: haha. thank God for hannah and samantha. i think their muscles must be aching right now. they carried me for like two stations. then hannah dropped me. lol. it was so funny lah! haha. learn something new. the lizard crawl! it's soo coool lah!

anyway. i think the games were all very well done! esp the finale. DYL! haha. was supposed to have this game called cross strait cola but, due to time constraints, it was cancelled. so we proceeded to DYL. cant guess what is it? too bad, go learn your acronyms. haha. (: my sheep twisted her back while dunking angela. haha. but she's okayye alr.

and yes! i was tricked, then dunked!

was burnt! reminder. please don pat my shoulders, i'll scream at you okayye!

ohh yes. if your skin's peeling, don peel it! cause i peeled it, and i got a white patch on my stupiid face. x( don take after my footsteps. lol. (:

i think the streaming's so dumb.
two triple sciences classes.
one double sciences class.
two double humanities classes.
one arts class.

yes. the highlight is. one double sciences class. im so grrrr* upset k. but it's okay. i'll make do with double humanities. at least im taking bio. yes! and with all those horny people like nicole chua, june, carina, etc, science's going to be ineresting. (: heh. but the sad thing is, sec 3a'05 is mostly made up of 2d'04 and 2e'04. all the nerds from 2d'04 are promoting to sec 3a'05!! ahhh! im going to see the same old faces. where are all the handsome boys!? and the pretty girls?!

hmph. looking forward to 3a'05 though. (: already had in mind who i should outreach to. (:

1. never use a big word when a dimunitive alternative will suffice
2. always avoid alliteration
3. prepositions are not words to end sentences with
4. avoid cliches like the plague - they're old hat
5. don't use commas, that, are not, necessary
6. do not use a foreign word when there is an adequate english quid pro quo
7. one should NEVER generalise
8. use youre spell chekker to avoid mispalling and to catch typograhpical errers
9. also poofread carefully to see if you any words out
10. don't use abbreviations, etc
11. parenthetical remarks (however relevant) are unnecessary
12. parenthetical words however should be enclosed in commas
13. contractions aren't necessary
14. who needs rhetorical questions?
15. be more or less specific

haha. found this really interesting. get it? (:

a few days ago, i found out from my gu gu (aunt) that my san shu (third uncle) was diagnosed with cancer. we're not very sure what kind of cancer is that. but it's between the mouth and the nose. im not sure if there's a cure for it. but the operation sounds super frightening, and i think it's super risky. heard from my aunt that they will have to extract out his two front teeth, then (i don know how, but) do the operation through the nose.

haii. i don think my parents know about this yet. but im going to break the news to them soon. anw, i think my aunt's is like so admirable. it's like, when her family members are facing difficulties, she will go all out to help them. she really puts others before self. yaa. and she also tries to satisfy my needs, or rather, wants. cause it's like. before this news reached her, she actually wanted to sponsor me for my orthodontical treatment (knowing that my parents are not very well-off). and besides this, she also pays for my handphone bills. but because of my uncle's case, she so-called apologised to me for not being able to sponsor me for the orthodontical treatment anymore, because she has to set aside some money for my uncle's operation.

and it's like so sad lah. as in. im not sad over the orthodontical treatment case. but my uncle's case. my uncle is a rather nice chap actually. though im not very close to him. he gave me a second hand handphone a few years back. yaa. and i think i just saw my grandfather tearing. sobs. i don't know whats with my family lah. they just seem to be lacking of communication. xx.

im really at a lost of mind. i want to share Christ with him, and this is like, the best opportunity. but, the thing is that, im the only christian in the whole whole whole family. and if i were to share with him, my grandfather will know that im a christian, then i will be skinned alive! x( i think all i can do now is to pray. prayer does work. im just gonna believe in God that he's gonna do a great work. i trust in your healing hands daddy! (:

i think i learnt something from this. but i don think im gonna continue. im fatigue.

every new day
your glory unfolds
filling my eyes
with your treasures untold
the beauty of holiness
brings worship anew
my greatest love is you

call me deeper into your grace
the river that flows from the holy place
wash over me cleansing me through
my greatest love is you

ahhh! i don think i can make it to double science anymore, with my oh so pathetic results. crap. i should have slogged the earlier half of the year. my class position is crap (needless to say), my level position is rubbish, and my percentage? give me a break.

class position: 21
level position: 170
overall percentage: 61.1%

okayye. im not sure if this is the overall. but it sort of determines which class i will go to right? and i think the school's offerring only three pure science classes, because of our results. how wonderful. there goes my double science. help! i don want double humanities! i just dislike humanities. especially geog. it's disgusting you know?! i flunk the mapwork section okayye! i cant even do the topographical map. that's how pathetic i am. hurhur.

why are there so many nerds in this batch of sec twos? pfft.

anyway. im currently at my 6th day of purpose-driven life. and genny's at her 4th day. haha. i think the content is like so, meaningful and so impactful. and it really made me ponder on what on earth am i here for. wow. (: oh ya! i saw a few books by max lucado at trumpet praise on saturday. and i really really love it! one of it was, it's not about me, and the other one (i cant remember the title), something about loving others. i think i really need to grow in the area of love. i felt that i've lost this passion for people. and i really want to regain this burden that i've lost for the people in fairfield. i just want to serve God and do his will till the end of time.

i'll set my mind on you Lord
i'll chose you everytime
focus my eyes on you Lord
and dedicate my life

here i am, use me
come into my life
i want to be, more like Jesus
until the end of time

uh huh. got back my results for science, geog, chinese and home econs. it's so super pathetic. you can use it to wipe your butt after doing some business. arggh. that sounded so low class. but heck. who cares. my results are disgusting anyway.

hmph. aiya. i think my hope in getting to double science has been vanished lah. with my borderline results. xx. and miss lim is like thinking of changing the subject combinations, due to our atrocius results. which means that, there will be lesser pure science classes! and with lesser pure science classes, i will have a much much much lower chance of getting into a pure science class!! im so so disheartened.

oh wells. i guess God must have a plan for me. i shall succumb to the fact that maybe im really not meant to be in double science. everything is in God's hands. i cant control. i will just do these..

1. shut up
2. know that God is in control
3. just paddle

(: alrights. somehow God blessed me in some way. i passed my geog paper, like, 50/100! haha. hmph. i was stupefied when my friends told me that i got a 50. i was like, huh. praise God! haha. i mean it's like. after i did the paper, i thought that i was going to fail it. but nevertheless, God never seems to fail me. (: he gave me a 50/100. yay! i think some of you might think that im crazy to be gloating over a pathetic 50. but, im really grateful. im not that smart, you see. and i really studied for the eoy exams. yupp. haha. this just shows that this phrase, "do your best and God will do the rest" is just so real. haha. thank you dadd!

how good it is to give thanks unto the Lord!

the steadfast love of the lord never ceases
his mercies never come to an end
they are new every morning
new every morning
great is thy faithfulness o lord
great is thy faithfulness

Jesus never fails. he picks me up when i fall. he carries me, when im weighed-down and burdened. wherever i go, he is always there. he is so faithful, so unchanging.

and im desperate for you
and im lost without you

anw.
blessed birthday ethan!

When i think about the lord
how he saved me
how he raised me
how he filled me with the holy ghost
how he healed me to the uttermost
when i think about the lord
how he lift me up
and turned me around
how he placed my feet on solid ground

it makes me wanna shout
hallejuah thank you Jesus
for all the glory
and all the honour
and all the praise

i oh so feel like worshipping God now. it's normally at my lowest moments when i will have this urge to seek God, and to find strength in him. but i donn wanna be like this. i want to seek him even though im not down in my spirits. i want to be a faithful follower of Jesus. ((:

anw. studied with esther and june just now. then june left halfway to see some acupuncture crapp. haha. ohh wells. then me and esther continued studyingg. had a fruitful fellowship. ((:

heh. to all out there who still havent finish youur examss. don feel. _______. haha. yay! just work hard. do your best, and our God will take care of the rest! ((: God bless for the papers!! ((:

[for fairsians]
remember the poem mr hou wrote? slog on, slog on. wahahhaas! alright. take care peepps!! let's all aim and strive to go double science k!!

so far i've been rather faithful in my studies.
hah. a breakthrough for me.
yay! i think holland bk's becoming my second home.
heh. i go there like everyday after school?
together with esther and june.
hoho.
anyway. i donn seem to be worried about the upcoming examss!
howww!!
i shouldd be panickingg!!
bleaghh. anw. i failed my geog test!
it's so discouraging. xx.
9.5/20
it's so pathethic.
howeverr.
God is nevertheless graceful.
science 14/20
chinese 76/100
hah. still not very good though. ((:
but it's okayy.
im gonna give my fullest for streamings.
double science!!

anyway. i have a sad news to announce.
[switched phone with nicole ytd.]
sadly.
i was appalled to find out today that.
it was stolenn!
unpleasant "music" automatically played when i reached home.
-adidas-
alrights. gotta mugg.
nights world! (in advance).

hadd caregroupp todayy.
so funn!! as usual.
heh. ((: as crappy as everr.
had cg somewhere nearr sam's place.
soo funny.
everythingg was like so screwedd upp!!
then after cg. there was thiss gigantic dogg.
then because all ouur stuffs were lyingg all over the groundd.
soo. the dogg grabbedd vienne's pencil box!!
hahh! it's soo hilariouss lahh!
most of us were scaredd of the dogg.
and i almost fell off the benchh, cause all of us were roaring withh laughhter.
and nicole was playingg tug-o-war with the dogg using vienne's pencil box.
loll! cannt stop laughhingg larr.
haha. ((:
thank God for thiss wonderfull dayy!!

i feel soo wronngedd and stupidd.
people are like accusing me for things which i have not done.
people are accusing me for things whichh are sooo stupid.
why do people alwayss have negative thoughts.
why canntt these people just thinkk on the slighter positive side.
why cannt these people look at themselves, even before they judge.
why cann't they take a reality check. and see that.
the problem might actually lie in themselves.
they could have bitterness against me.

wellsss. i myself must also take a reality check.
maybe i am really in the wronng.
due to our imperfection, we cant notice all these blind spots in ourr lives.
i just have to ask my dearestt daddyy in heaven.

dearr daddyy!
i reallyy feel soo lostt youu knoww. lord, tell me the areas whichh i've donee wrong. tell me, the areas whichh i need to grow in. lord, i want to be more like youu. lord guide me in whateverr i do and wherever i go. i want to lead a holy and blameless life!! the world's full of many temptationss lord. lordd hold me closee to youu. i wanna place my securityy in youu only. speakk to me daddy! i need youuu!
amen.

woww. hadd a ratherr surprisedd belatedd birthday celebrationn todayy.
really thankk God for the people in cb5, and not forgetting cb2 too!! ((:
they aree suchh wonderfull, creative and dramatic people. ((:

yeahhh. wanna thankk everyonnee for the giftss and cardss and wishess!!
angela + some fairsianss
thankss for the fromm reebok!! i loveee it! ((:
samantha
i lovee the piggg on the photo frameee! lovee the cardd too!! thankeww!
phoebe + tecksin
wheeeee!! the present's veryy lovelyy!! thanksss! loveee youu!
ethan
haha! 2nd time yourr name appearrs. my cg? there, cb5 lorrr! ((:
the rest who wishedd me happy belatedd birthday
thanksss tooo!!

yay! i think i left out some people namess. but nevermind lah. im forgetful. heh. ((:
yuppp. ohhhss. phoebe and angela bought me a slice of cake from sweet secretss!!! it'ss simplyy deliciousss man! yummm yummm! ((x tataa! althoughh i donn really like cakess, but cakes from sweet secrets are exceptionss. heh.
alrighhtts. anw, i hadd a breakthroughh today.
i reachhedd home at eight!
heh. feel soo guaii.
lolliee. okieee. off to mugg now.
good nighttss!

i suddenly remembered the butterfly joke june toldd me. heh.
anw. although, i didnt had 14 candles today, but really appreciate the gifts and messages that people blessed me withh. ((:
thank God for everythinngg!

thankss
genny
thankss for the presenntt! i lovee it. ((:
carina
yays. thankss for the present too. i love it too!
swee swee
haha! yay! the gift may be simple, but it was really sweet! thankss!
gwen, sindhu, chanel, selene, yunxing, clarence, malcolm
thankss all for the birthdayy wishhess!
natalina
thanksss pal!! ((: lovee youu!
russell
thankss for the "letter. hah. ((:
han
where's my presentt? loll. kiddingg. thankss for the brithdayy wishh. ((:
central [c]
thankss for the flower, but it's witheringgg!
joanne
heyyss! thanks for the sms! lovee youu!
ethan
yo! thankss for the sms! you'ree the firstt birthdayy wishherr. haha.
angela
thankksss for the sms! lovee yaa shepherdd! ((:
yvonne [hope] clement, ziming, clarence [northeast], abigail, timothy
thankss for the onlinee birthdayy wishhess! ((:
jarvin, yunkai
thankss for the birthdayy call? loll.
the rest
thanks for the smsess!! don feel out because yourr name is not here. i savedd all yourr messages k!!? ((: haha.

alrightts. i feel so lovedd and blessedd.
thanks everyone! ((:

no eye has seen
no eye has seen
no ear has heard
the good that the lord
has prepared for those
who wait on him
to hear his voice
you are the potter
and i am the clay

jesus take me in your hands
and make me all that you want me to be
jesus help me understand
my purpose and what you can do through me
fulfilling my destiny

holy spirit
holy spirit
touch me from above
holy spirit
fill me with your love
holy spirit
move upon my life
holy spirit
stir me inside

and i yield to you
spirit of the lord
do your work in me
and i yield to you
spirit of the lord
do your work in me
and i yield to you

spiritually refreshedd

licentious? legalisation?
nahh. liberty.

yesterday.
learnt loads during seed.
learnt loads from the sermon yesterday as well.
praise wass wonderrfuul!
above all, i live for your glorryy!
yeahh.
yeppp. went to newton after seed ytd.
we were supposed to play basketball lahh.
but then when we reachedd there, we found out that it wasnt available.
how nicee.
so we went to eat there insteadd.
hah. we'll be playing badminton next week, after seed.
i must continue my match with dan! 5-2.
superr pathetic. heh.
and i must win ethann somehoww!
he thrashhedd me totally ahh,
11-2. 11-1
hah. ((:
anyway. streamingg's arounnd the cornerrr!
im feelingg soo stressedd lah!
haii. hope God will bringg me through this time of persecution
hah! - looks at dan -
even if my world fall i will sing!

heyss! bbq yesterday was soo funn lahh.
heh. ben wai's sister is sooo cutee!
she's called valerie. primary three.
hah. her older sister's so demure.
her name's clarisse? i cantt spell.
heh. whateverr.
valerie treats me as if i had known her for ages. loll.
first, we were marinating the fishh.
so she started to make some comments on how i marinated the fishh.
heh. then she wanted to marinate the last fishh, so i let her do it lahh.
loll. crappp.
then after that we played with tennis balls.
heh. then followed by bowling!
loll. then after that jenga.
then i had to follow the guys to some place to get the food for bbq.
cause i was the treasurer! x(
alrighhts.
bbq was quite fun ytd.
playyedd some really silly games - hide and seek.
loll. whateverr.
valerie was running around lahh, so me and esther were panting like madd.
heh. yaahh.
reachhedd home at about 11.30.
took 970. then alighted at holland v. sharedd cab with june and jarvin.
hah. richh kidss.
bathedd thenn sleep.

woke up at around 8.30.
cause had to accompany the nb to the nb party.
anw, the nb party wass reallyy funn lahh!
hah. thank God for shuzhen, gwen and shirley! ((:
the teachingg and games and everythinng was really meaningful.
i learnt loads too.
yeepp.
went to lunchh at fat mamas.
borrowed bball from jarvin's friend.
then played with june, ethan, yunkai and jarvin.
that's all!
yeahh. anyway, i think i should adopt a prayer list everydayy! ((:

prayer listt
ask and it shall be given unto you
1. pray that all the nb in cb5 will mature in christ and have the heart for people!
2. pray for the members to have the desire to grow and be shepherds of God's flock!
3. pray for myself to hunger for God's word and to be spiritually renewedd daily.

crapp lahh.
i just typed an ultra lonngg post, clicked the publish button, and guess what.
my computer hanged.

whateverr.

anyway.
i have to post about the family day we had yesterday!!
cause it was totally wonderful and fruitful!
heh. ((:
i shall tell you every single detail in sequence. ((:

had my breakfast then went to meet june at commonwealth mrt.
then we headed towards samantha's house.
on the way.
i realised june was wearing this very loose pants.
so i reminded her of what happened during family day last year.
hah. so she was like, "oh ya horr!"
heh. she's so ultra funny lahh. ((x
when we reached her house, her mum offered us horlicks.
so sweet right? and her mum's so funny and hyper, just like sam. ((x

yeahh. anyway, we left her house at 11+.
so it's like we reachedd there at around 11.30!
and we were practically stoning there.
before setting off, central2 girls played polar bear.
yupp. then when we reachedd the place, it was drizzling.
so couldnt have outdoor activities.
so we went to the arcade.

then when it was about 2, we had our buffet steamboat.
hah. not much splatters this time.
ohhhhhss.
cause jarvin was like holding this 1.5l bottle of coke.
then yk, who was like at the other end of table, jokingly asked him to throw it to him.
soo he just threw it across the table lahh.
before that ben already warned him not to.
cause it's like if he misses, our lives are at risk.
hah. then all missed the catch, and the coke landed on the plate of liver, and it splashed onto yk!!
hahhhhh! so funnyyy!
then there was this great uproar lahh.
then many turned their face towards our direction.
then ethan was like, ohh man, that looks like my group.
hahhh!
hehh. went to play captains ball opp after that.
yupp. then later we swopped our volleyball for a soccer ball.
then we played monkey soccer.
so crapp. i cant kickk for nuts.
after that went bowling.
again, we were grouped.
so me, jarvin, jonathan and ethan were a team.
playyedd really badly lahh.
loll. x(
then in the mrt, on the way to dhoby ghout.
june was so super hyper.
check out her blogg.
hahh. cantt stand herr.
yupp. alrighttss.
grabbed a bite at mcdonalds.
then went home.
reachhed home at around 10.40.
thank God for everything!

you're the lover of my soul, and i adore you only!

there's no greater joy Lord, than being with you. ((:

ohhh. im so in love with this song!
a moment like this by kelly clarkson.

ooohhsss! played soft tennis/ mini tennis for pe todayy!
it rawkks my sockks!
it's so funnn!
the school should start either tennis/ mini tennis as a cca!
heh. ((:
fmps used to have mini tennis as a cca i think.

heh.
anw. went to play badminton at safra just now.
i just go for fun lahh. cause i got nothing to do. and well, i think i have to play more if not my skills will deteoriate.
uhh. yeahh. they hold this every week lahh.
and what's more, it's free! ((:
so i just go lorr. [since the players there cant really play that well]
hah. then wont malu myself.
loll. im such a chicken. x)

anw. there was this funny incident which happened before i left for safra.
hah. i cant be bothered to type them out.
so if you want to know.
you can go take a look at genny's blogg.
she had it posted there. ((:

hah. okayy. enough enough enough.
goodnight!

listen
and
silent
they are both spelled with the same letters.

anw. had physical training todayy.
so tiring!
alright.
i shall give you a review of the training todayy.

firstly.
we went to the basketball court.
did shadowing. [front and back - netting and smashing]
five sets of fives.

then.
still at the basketball court.
did some relayys.
it's like you know, two teams competing against each other.
and then you have to like, run.
and then you go like, scissors, paper, stone!
hahah ((: yeahh. so funnyy!

well. after that.
outside the gym. [to be more specific] against the walls.

tse min: you all love to sit rightt? can you see the lonng row of bench against this walls? well, it's for us! ((:

i mean this is like, so crappy!
cause is like.
you see, there's no bench!
hehh. what she meant was.
we're gonna lean against the walls.
bodies leaned against the walls.
hands off your thighs.
feets, right angled.
and we're going to sit on imaginary chairs!
oh man. it was tremendously torturous!
the worse thing was that.
we had to do eight sets of one minute eachh!
grrr.
well.

then. to the gym.
every station, did two sets of twenty seconds.

end. track.
jogged two rounds around the track.

whooshhh. my leggs were like jelly after that. hah. but the whole training was quite interesting. esp the imaginary chair. ((: and it was like so, unfair! cause only the girls did it, and the guys didnt do it. hrmf. x|

oh wells. played bball with some people.
russel is like, quite pro lorr.
given his height. hah. ((:
and he keeps calling me a dogg!
[how did he even know that i was nicknamed that]
loll. ((:
okayy. rather fun dayy.
laadeedums. x)

when God ran
Almighty God,
The Great I Am
Immoveable Rock,
Omnipotent powerful

Awesome Lord,
Victorious Warrior Mighty Conquerer,
Commanding King of Kings
And the only time,
the only time I ever saw Him run
Was when

He ran to me,
Took me in His arms,
held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face,
wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son, do you know I still love you?"

It caught me by surprise when God ran

The day I left Home,
I knew I'd broken His heart
I wondered if
Things would ever be the same,

Then one night,
I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road,
ahead I could see
It was the only time,
the only time I ever saw Him run
Was when

He ran to me,
Took me in His arms,
held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face,
wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son, do you know I still love you?"

It caught me by surprise,
It dropped me to my knees
When God ran

Bridge:
Holy God,
Righteous One
Who turned my way
Now I know,
You've been waiting
For this day

saturday service was awesome and it totally rawkk!
66th street.
heh. and central b hit 56!
had a balestier hill convert yesterday.
well done vienne!
woow. and i will be follow upping her on [not sure yet].
[cause she's quite a busy person i guess]
so excitedd!
cause it's my first time follow upping someone from a different school!
heh. ((:
anw, let me get back to yesterday's service.
whooooo.
drama was great!!
a little violent though. hah.
in fact, the whole service was fabulous.
but the best part was still the sermon.
-i cant remember the title-
but it made me ponder. and yes i responded.
am i doing this just to gain the favour of people?
are we doing this to please God or man?
many a times, we may be doing the will of God. but deep inside our hearts, are we really doing this for God? or are we just doing this just to please our leaders, or get into our leader's good boots.

"He will never forsake you, unless you chose to leave Him."
to the very you:
run back to His arms again.
and i want you to take a look at the lyrics of this song.
when God ran
it just reminded me of how magnificent His love is.
His arms are always open. run back to him.

loll. cantt believe it.
our class actually won 500bucks for the whiz biz.
first prize. ((:
well.
comfirmation night.
we (cb5) hit 22 yesterday.
wonderful! ((:
anw. i have one comfirmed st. marg primary and maybe one balestier hill visitor tmr.
heh. ((:
so duper whateverr enthu!!!
we must fill at least 3 rows tmr!
starbursting!

wah lao. im so super disappointed lorr.
susilo lost to that thailand boonsak or whateverr you spell it.
he looks so distracted during the game.
guess he must be thinking too much about his gf.
maybe worrying about her pingpong quarter finals. x(
well. he must or should be crying his lungs out by now.
hemm. continue crying susilo.
over your one million dollar that you've missed out due to one stupid match you lost.
now you're left with nothing.
yeahh. not a single cent.
buahahaha.
well. hush hush.
have a nice short rest.
and go cheer your intestines out for your gf later on.
make sure this does not affect her.
or both of you are going to hug each other and cry your lungs out together.
suffer depression as well. hehs.
alright. enough rubbish/ condemnation.
x)) seeya.

alicia keys - if i aint got you

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define whats within
And I been there before but thats lifes a bore so full of the superficial

Chorus:
Some people want it all but I dont want nothing at all
If it aint you baby if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you yeah
Some people search for a fountain
The promise is forever young
(You know) Some people need 3 dozen roses
And thats the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share with no one who truly cares for me

Chorus:
Some people want it all but I dont want nothing at all
If it aint you baby if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you you you
Some people want it all but I dont want nothing at all
If it aint you baby if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you yeah
If aint got you with me baby ohh ooo
Say nothing in this whole wide world dont mean a thing
If I aint got you with me baby

http://www.athens2004.com/en/resultsBadminton/results?oid=6107

crap. my parents didnt allow me to watch the match between lin dan and susilo yesterday.
anw. susilo won!!!!
woohh!! yeahh. ((:
so proud of himm.
too bad he doesnt know that im cheering him on. hehs! ((x
alrights.
there's a highlight later at 8.45pm.
well. have to studyy first. hah.
see ya. ((:

im not sent to start the race. but im sent to finish the race.

woohh. the olympics rawkk man.
im gonna wake up at 12am later.
and watch the match between susilo and lingdan.
hehh.
lingdan's like china's top seed?
muahahaa.
well i think the match later's gonna rawkk.
but im afraid im too lazy to get out of my bedd.
howw?!
alrights. if anyone sees this, please wake me up at 12 ya? call my phone.
hehh. kidding. ((:

yeahh! played basketball for pe todayy.
was playing soccer at first.
then got quite boredd of it. and i don quite liked soccer.
so i moved on to captains' ball.
got quite boredd of it also. so i went to the basketball court to see if anyone was playing basketball.
yeahh. then arvin, han, darren, kok leong and yong tao were there.
but they were playing a match.
so i went to the nerdier guys. there they were playing a b c. so i asked if i can try shooting. and guess what! my first shot went in!
yeeeahh!
hahh. yeahh. i felt some sense of achievement. loll. ((:
cause the group was quite bigg, so i decided to join those playing match.
so it was like.
me han kokleong against arvin darren yongtao.
hahh. yeahh. scoredd 2-3 balls?
cause no one is allowed to mark me or defend or block me.
loll. but the stupid arvin just stood in front of me and i cannt shoot.
whateverr.
alrights.
looking forward to service tmr.
but guess i gotta bring a pail of water so that i wont cough too much during praise and worship. ((:

well. i just simply love my voice.
it's so macho lorr. ((x

anw. im really looking forward to the end of sept.
june, huishi, samantha and myself.
we've set a goal for ourselves.
which is to be a cl by end sept.
and im reallyy excitedd!
cause fairfield has really grown!!
we not only have quantity growth, but also quality growth!
and im just just just soo excited to see fairfield grow to a unit size!
and it can be done!
amen!!
cause we have such enthusiastic newbelievers and people who are alwayys on fire for God. ((x
girls, let's just continue to let this fire burn in our hearts.
let's continue to bring the people from the dark, to the light!
look. we're all running this race together.
let nothing just shift our focus.
we're living for the audience of one!
and that's you daddy, King Jesus!
though tongues may wag and we may face adversities.
but lord we know that your grace will see us through. ((:
we're gonna break this land for you.

laughter the best medicine? or the best killer?

had sheeps day at sentosa today.
pretty kewll and fun.
went swimming although we didnt bring extra clothes. ((:
met the 1d 2003.
jac, joelynn, hosea, clement, pak kee, christopher, joshua toh, lanz.
yupp.
then we wanted to swim from this shore to another shore.
but then huishi couldnt swim.
so we just tried means and ways to get over to the other shore.
then we had this wonderful idea of how we can all go across there.
so it was like.
huishi will cling on to samantha and june.
and me and angela will just guard behind.
loll. then for the first few seconds.
it was going on fine.
but laughter had to spoil everything!
it all started with huishi! loll.
as you know, laughing is contagious. really contagious.
huishi started laughing. cause they were swimming sideways, instead of swimming forward.
so all the three in front started laughing.
and then huishi gave june a hard push and she was immersed totally in the water.
so huishi had to cling on samantha (her closest support).
and samantha was out of breath.
her whole face was like really red!
then i found june's laughter and the whole incident really funny.
so i started laughing!
then angela started laughing!
so i was like struggling in the waters for sometime, and grabbing angela, and frantically laughing and screaming at the same time, before i knew it, i could touch the shore!
so the whole thing was like really funny!!
hahh. ((:
yeahh. played volleyball and soccer?!
then there was this group of guys.
so attention seeking lorr!
they were trying all the girls' names to attract our attention!
grr. cant be bothered with these people.
first they shouted, "want us to join you?!"
-so bhb-
then they asked if we wanted to play a soccer match.
of course! we rejected! duhh.
loll. okay.
my dad's back from hong kong.
he bought these two phones.
crazyy. donno what's with him. splurging money on handphones!
now there's like. two extra phones!?
alrights. if anyone needs a phone, maybe you can ask me. ((:

anyway. everyone's RED except me!
i was like under the sun for so lonng!
but there wasnt really any effect! grr.
im going tanning again sometime this month. ((x
who's with me?! ((:

shoots.
im down with a fever! bleaghh.
and im having a sore throat, and slight headache.
poof.
sighh.
and i feel so weakk and sickly.
i don even have the strength to talk.
now i know that being sickk isnt a good thing at all.
nah nah nah.

oh! jolene asked me to go for the ndp today.
but i have to turn down her offer cause my mum dunch allow.
so sorry my dear. x((
anyway.
i think that the lin jun jie can sing really well!!
did you hear him sing the "home".
man. i was totally stunned. ((x
three cheers for himm!
alrights. have to go.
tadas.

please pray for huishi and me.
we ate plastic noodles just now!
oh no no no. cup noodles.
and mine tasted like plastic!
and i didnt bothered cause i was hungry!

now i got this feeling im gonna die anytime!
i may be here this moment.
but what about the next?
:((
i dowanna go in an ambulance or die in my sleeps!
i still have many things which are yet accomplished!
i still want to do many many more things for the Lord before i die!
Lord please keep me and huishi safe!
protect us!
x((
lord at least let me share Christ first to the two people coming tmr!

oh. after all these lonng post. God sent kenneth to tell me that i wont die.
cause all cup noodles taste like that.
fine. im re-assured.
but mine really really taste like plastic.
nevermind.
i shall trust God. ((:

hohoho.
played frisbee today.
sec 2 team d girls rawkks mann. hah.
it consists of.
selene lissa yunxing me kathi audrey queency vienne and mdm lim.
(i think there's one more, but i cant rmb)
although we don really know each other well.
(cause we were all from different classes! )
but we co-ordinated rather well.
yupp. but most of them were from 6f 2002.

and unexpectedtly, mdm lim is a rather good player!
kewll. she's so super enthu?!

heh. yupp. i think everyone did a great job! ((:
and i somehow managed to catch and throw the frisbee!!
after having lost touch with frisbee for like. one year!!
and i had a phobia of frisbee. why!?
cause one year ago, i was hit right in the ear by IT!
and tears just roll down my cheeks unsparingly.
but the tears were not intentional. loll. really!!

okayy back to the point.
hah. yeah! and i think the sec 1 team d girls are so TALL and ROUGH.
especially nuru! -watch out, junior!-
hahh, no lahh. kidding. man (i think she's an all-rounder). x((
anyway. i managed to catch a goal!!!
yeahh! and i think all of you should clap for me okayy!
it's been like 21542189 years since i last touched frisbee!
-feels some sense of achievement-
eeks. sound so egoistic.

whateverr. well.
during the game.
i fell while catching the goal!!
chicken. x((
blehh. but the process in which i fell was really comical!
hehh. and i almost slipped when i caught the frisbee.
cause the field was like, really sandy.
and i was like sliding across!!
hahh. whateverr.

yeah interclass competition which was held on monday.
managed to get a silver for captain's ball. ((:
-i think i mentioned this upteen times-
so they gave out the medals.
everyone was like cheering for their own class when their class was announced.
but my class, being so "united".
haii. you should know the outcome.
yeahh. and while receving the medals.
miss lim made arvin make a vow.
loll. so crappy.
((:

kayy. had cg today too. ((:
was quite worn out.
so the way cg was led was quite slacky lahh. x((
yehh.
alrights.
have to go.
tadas-

What Name Should You Have? by Lauren

ohh. still remember the chinese test i mentioned in my last few posts?
the marks has changed!!
yeahh!
it's no longer 63/100.
but it's 70/100. ((:
well. but i think 70 is still quite bad lahh.
the highest i got was like.
90?
boohoo.
im so sadd.
well im gonna strive towards achieving a1 for chinese.
by God's grace i can achieve it.
((:

anw. left school at 12.30.
wasnt feeling too well.
was supposed to follow up vienne!! but argh.
i have to postpone it.
yupp. went to the office and got the sign out form.
and that freaking heartless and whatever priscilla song didnt want to let me off (go home).
-that might explain why she's still single-

whaateverr.
caregroup tmr.
hope that it can really bless the new believers.
((:

ohh yeahh! i found the lyrics!
but i donno how to sing it! blehhh.
some kind soul sing it for me please!

Heaven
I need Your Love Like the desert needs the rain
I need Your touch Like the fire needs the flame
One moment without You near
Is heartache I cannot bear
A lifetime with You O Lord
Is Heaven I long to Know
Heaven

Come over me
Like the oceans meets the shore
Shine on my life
Like the morning steals
Steals the light

i need your love, like the desert needs the rain
i need your touch, like the fire needs the flame
one moment without you near
is heartache i cannot bear


ehh! does anyone knows the title of this song, and how to sing this song!?
please tell me if you do kayy!?
terima kasih

carina was absent again.
loll. and the few of us were like.
oh no! she was absent the day before also ehh! how how?! if she doesn't come the next day then we must really flip to the obituary section of the straits times ehh. but i scaredd! how?!
loll. so funny. i think sindhu was the one who started this.
and the rest of us just crazily followed.
heh.

gave carina a call after school.
she's alive!!
oh man! we miss her loads man!
class was so peaceful without her!!
tahaha. but im so happy that she's coming back to school tmr.
she's got a five day mc!

didn't have training today.
there'll be no training this thurs too.
yeahh. im so free this week now.
shall take this time to catch up with my nbs.

went orchard with sindhu.
and sweeswee was supposed to come!
nevermind. lonng grandmother story.
window-shopped from paragons to ps.
and nothing catches my attention at all.
roxy stuffs look. plain simple.
adidas. weird.
nike bags. horrible.

but

happy house. woots!
adidas shoes/pants. ooo!
nike shoes/shorts. mosquito clap.

and sindhu! you promised me a pigg for my birthday.
i dont want the market pigg ehh.
loll. kidding.
hahh. alrights.
school ends at 9.30 tmr. wonderful.
playing touch rugby tmr? not sure.
sayonara.

woots. had a fabulous day today.
yeah! i've got 24/30 for my maths test!
praise God!
but. only 63/100 for my chinese test. )):
praise God still.

hmm. had interclass games (lower sec) after school too.
captains ball and ultimate frisbee.
so i was in captains ball.
pathetically, i was the shortest
hmm. i think everyone did a great job although we only got silver.
but way to go people!
continue growing taller!
except for arvin and christina.
arvin's like 180+ if im not wrong?
and christina's 171!
and i must say that christina's a really good catcher!
and arvin, a very good defender & ball jumper!
and for the rest of the people! good attackers and defenders!
and sheryl! the one and only supporter!! hahh!

haii. but so sad lahh. we didnt win, overall.
lost to 2e.
3-1
well. it's super saddening lahh.
but. at least i can see that the class is slightly more united.
and seeing 2d united is like forcing a pigg down your throat.
yes. plus the fact that all of the 2e ppl are 160 and above!
and we. all 163 and above except me?
loll. nevermind. i shan't brood over this.
enjoyed myself though.

yeahh. and i think im going to break down soon.
feeling so stressed and all.
homework's piling up.
im lagging way behind the syllabus.
training must be more disciplined and focussed.
plan for cg.
shepherding and follow ups.
streamings coming up!
intolerable teachers.

well. im nothing but a limited human.
how can i contain all these.
i just have to hand all these to you daddy!
guide me through this hectic season lord!
i pray that i shall stand firm throughout all adverties and trials etc.
lord im trusting in you alone.
thankew dearest dad ((:

argh. i took a thermometer and put it inside my mouth just now.

then the reading was running quite rapidly in the beginning.

but. towards the end, it gradually slowed down.

stopping at.

36.6

great. im not running a fever!

and this isnt a good sign at all!

nah nah nahh.

i want to be sick!!

it's been a long time since i had a fever you knoww!

like a few years or so?

it's like. i've never missed school in my entire life!

why cant i just miss school for once?

blehh.

i should appreciate what God gave me.

he gave me good body resistance.

so that i can go back to school and do his will?

yepp. alright.

i should stop thinking about falling sick and stuffs.

i shall yearn to be healthy.

so that i can serve him more efficiently.

amen! ((:

had a pretty interesting day todayy.

firstly. the lessons conducted were mostly my favourite lessons.

maths, home econs and lifeskills.

anyway, for home econs, we made rojak.

ingredients:

you tiao

green apple

cucumber

turnip

pineapple

prawn paste

peanut

 

and the prawn paste was like. so pathetic?! and it tastes really weird. and the stingy woman only gave me barely one spoon of each!? blehh.

after im done with my food. i went around to see on how the others did for their rojak. so i went to zhengxian and qingyuan's table. hehh. here comes the really funny but cruel part.

because there was a box of rojak on the table, which we don know whom it belonged to. so:

carina: ehh! then add all the salt and pepper inside lahh!

sinyee: oh yea!! great idea man. -chooses the ingredient to put-

when i was choosing the ingredient, qingyuan turned around and glared at me. so i was like, huh! it's yours ahh, oh i didnt do anything.

hehh. qingyuan started adding oil. yes! oil! then followed by arvin, pepper, han, soya sauce, kenneth, salt. loll. more people gathered, so this attracted mrs tan's attention. hahh! loll. then mrs tan forced those who did that to finish up the rojak!! so funny!! yepp. but they all ate only one piece (except for qingyuan - that chicken). i think if you're at the scene you'll burst out loud mann. haha.

yeahh. then stayed back after school to do the banner for the henna stall. hahh. quite fun. but we made a mess in the canteen. our table is like soo wet! and we had to mop the whole area. and i have to be the star cleaner of the day.

loll. fascinating huhh.

-learning tingxie now-

byee`

blehh. ponn-ed physical.
just don feel like going.
so here i am stoning in front of the computer.
while the rest are so "enthusiastically" training.
either in the gym or running up and down or around the school.
heh.
wonder who's (which teacher) gonna look me up tomorrow (for being absent for training). =x
loll.
stepped out of the school at 2.45pm.
went to get my science ws from yunkai outside his school.
jarvin was with him too.
wondering what my science ws is doing with him?
wells. longg story. but i shall explainn since im so bored now.
on sundayy, i went to angela's house, and left my science worksheet there. i was supposed to get the worksheet from her on monday, but i couldn't make it. since acs is so near fairfield, and angela's house is so near yunkai's house, so angela passed the worksheet to him, and he passed the worksheet to me today.
whee. im such a good story teller.
hahh. loads of passing here and there huhh. lollie.
yeahh. then i walked home.
reachhed home at about 3.00.
ate, bathed, did my revision.
slack!

what can we give

that you have not given

and what do we have

that is not already yours

all we possess

are these lives we are living

and that's what we give to you Lord

yeahh! im so happy that jerene and vienne turned up  for centrestage yesterday!
although jerene didn't convert. but she enjoyed the service. and at least this had softened her heart a little, i hope.  whee!
and well done jolene! congrats vienne!
yepp. couldn't sit with my cg members cause me and jerene were late.
we took taxi and were caught up with a traffic jam. bleaghh.
yupp. when we reach. it was like, total darkness.
i could hardly see anything. the ultimate was that i missed one step and i almost fell!!]
but thank God for protecting me.
hehh. yeahh.
and so we were directed to our seats.
and the seats were like. so LOW!
i could barely see anything!!!
well. okkayy. then during welcoming. we shifted to the blue seats. cause there's no more seats at the sides anymore! sobs.
well. it's okkayy.
hahh. yeahh. know what. im lazy to continue. so i shall stop here. dao chi ting bi. zai jian!

i think God is really a miraculous God.
-salutes-
had a rather fruitful week somehow. decided to have a kiasu comfirmation on wed. and i realised that it worked out rather well.
yeshh!!
and i have two visitors from my side tomorrow!
jolene's bringing vienne, and me, jerene.
man. im totally amazed by what God had done through me.
i actually shared my life story through a letter to a non-believer, who has strong buddhist background!? and it really took me lots of courage to do that. cause i was really afraid of failure. i always had negative thoughts. what if this person will find me irritating after this? what if our friendship's affected because of this? but now. i no longer wanna think this way. cause somehow, i think this letter somehow and any old cow managed to change her "definition" of christians. and she's coming this SATURDAY. whee!!
and i still have another testimony to share! but im lazy to type it out. hehh. so seeya!!

heyya.
man. im so pissed with miss reena.
she totally -arggh-

anyway. im so proud of my mum.
she used to be the best runner in school.
cool huh.
she can do high jumps and hurdles.
hahh.
too bad i do not have her genes.
hehh.

wohh. im so proud to be a cb5ian. guess what!? cb5 had four converts yesterday!! well done huishi!! love you man!! -smooches-
and congratulations,
amanda, grace, nicole & malcolm!
claps claps claps*
also good job min for bringing jianru too!
haha. but i was quite disappointed lahh. cause there's supposed to be one visitor from my side, but then, -long story-
it's okayy. there's still the finals. muahaha. but wait! all gb girls arent coming! ahh, nevermind. there's still many out there. hehh. God's gonna make a way :)
anyway, i really wanna affirm huishi!! she's so super duper enthu!! (if you read my previous post) hahh. yeahh. and she's one that really dream BIG for God. (if u wanna know, can approach her. lol)
yeahh. so huishi, see you in seed meet in 2/3 weeks time!
anyway, i really enjoyed myself during praise!
 
[this is how we overcome]
you have turned my mourning into dancing -turns-
hahh. did some really stupid noises too. muahaha.
 
[my redeemer lives]
hahh! me&sam cheographed some funny thing for the chorus. hahh! so malu! but it's okayy, we're dancing for the audience of one!! hehh.
 
yupp. then we (cb4&5) went starhub downstairs and had some get-to-know-each-other games. haha, was pretty alright. cause it was planned right after service. thanks angela for the last minute games!!
went on to have our dinner. then me, angela & june went istana for some uhh. yahh. then went on to ps to meet the rest (min, yvonne & jolene) then later min&yvonne went off. then ethan called angela and asked if we wanted to watch movies. then june&jolene didnt want, so they went home. then me&angela went to meet ethan&ben at the 7th level. we were deciding what to watch. but most of the movies were like, full house? okayy. so we went to swensens. had topless 5 and fries. thankew ben for you and your wonderful idea. fun game. had a total of two cups of h20. hahh. but can't be compared to angela, who still owe us quite a few cups though.
 
you have turned my mourning into dancing.
you have turned my sorrows into joy.

wohh. im really so super excited for tomorrow's centerstage mann!!
huishi has so many comfirmed friends coming!!
teehee.
as for me.
hmm. my contacts are not really comfirmed yett. but i have faith that they can/ will come. cause they really really wanna come. one of them even wanted to receive salvation.
hahaha. just found out that me and huishi's visitors are sort of linked. haha.
 
 
anyway. huishi's so funny. i sort of admired her. -not in a lesbian way- she's really really super enthusiastic. love you girl!! heard how she went crazyy inviting her friends for the centerstage tomorrow. haha. it's so super duper cool. hahaha.
alrights. looking forward to tomorrow.
seeya.
 
 

try typing 'flipped' with your

nose: ro,80-0-d3de (man! what's this!!)
elbow: ftrli9p;p;ded (eeks!)
tongue: (yuckk!! i shall skip this.)
chin: fckl,ijkpl;pl;ddc (muahaha.)
feet: (i can't reach the keyboard.)
eyes closed with one finger: flipped
back of hand: flipped
palm: flipped
mouse: flipped
wrist: gfl;p[refd


hohos. found this interesting so i ripped it off someone's blogg.

jesus love is sweet and marvellous
jesus love is sweet and marvellous
jesus love is sweet and marvellous
oh oh marvellous love


higher than the skies above
deeper than the seas below
wider than the universe
oh oh marvellous love


was really encouraged when my sheep wants to bring her friend to service. she even asked me to persuade her sheepmate, (who hasnt been coming to service lately), to attend service. i think God is reallyy good (words just cant express how i feel). he just sends someone to encourage me, to cheer me up, whenever im down. i was worried about lots of things before that. but upon seeing this, my heart was reallyy at ease. truly thank God for everything he's put in my life. i love you daddyy!


centrestage's near. one week! im reallyy excited, for converts!! cause i know God's gonna do wondeful and great works in fairfield. :)

watched spiderman with the cb seed yesterday. the animations are reallyy cool. hahh. spiderman rawkk!!


yeahh. then later me angela june ethan ben dan went hq and stay over.


blablabla.


let me continue next time. im gonna play daidee now!!


[the next day`]
okay. i decided to continue my story.
yeahh. and then we took seven to hq. on the way, two questions popped up. dan and ben were like answering both of the questions. hahh. yeahh, so the rest just listened.
yeahh. i think most of the time we were playing cards. hehh. finally tried hearts. learnt a new game too. poker. hahh. i think it's quite funn. we used the mahjong tiles and chips as bets. the whole game was really funny. hahh. we have some people mimicking the king of gambling. teehee.
yupp. then we stopped playing when the euro finals started. i almost fell asleep. bleagh. yeahh. was really tired lahh. cause the night before i slept at 3pam, and woke up in the morning at around 8. yupp. then we went to seven-eleven during the half-time. was walking back to hq, pass the pub, then we heard GOAL. the worse thing was, greece scored! my oh my.
haha. okay. ronaldo so shuai! he cried lorr. sobs*
hurr. yeah. then after that we continued playing cards. this time round was hearts. yeahh!! haha. ben, followed by june was the first one to k.o. hahh. so funny. they had some sort of snoring competition. hehhs. the rest slept at around 7. tired mann. we set the alarm clock to 10. but we woke up at 12 instead. i guess it was because of the rain that we continued to snooze. yeahh, cause i woke up to close the windows at around 10.


hahh. enjoyable but tiring day. went on to play bball, then ate bk, then went home. yepp. hahh. hmm. centrestage. im gonna make full use of this ess and bring people to Jesus. :)

i cant believe the way
your love has got a hold on me
each morning i wake to find you near
you lift me above my fears
and set my feet on solid ground
all of my days belong to you


and i breathe in your breath of life
that fills my heart
you are my all consuming fire


i stand here before you
in wide open wonder
amazed by the glory of you
the power of heaven
revealing your purpose in me
as im reaching for you

wahh. this is absurb and stupid.
everyone i call isn't in.
it's either they aren't in, nobody pick up, or studying.
feel so pms.
is god testing me?
bleaghs.

mamamia. all my classmates seemed to have changed. they seemed to be much much more quieter. haha. i think its because they want to get into a good stream next year, thats why they decided to talk less. hehh. but thats a good thing. hahh. i think my class' getting nerdier. that includes me. =x teehee. i even planned when to start revision. initially wanted to start revision this week, but realised that the teachers hasn't really taught anything yet. so i decided to start revision next week. yeahh.


aiming for double science.
but doesnt really matter if i can get in or not.
achievements are only temporary.
why let achievements shift our focus?
i know God has a plan for me.
i will just go to any class, cause all the classes needs God. :)

Matthew 6:20
But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

coughs* somehow i think im sick. as in "shen bing". =( lasted for about 3-4days liao i think. and during cg when we were having worship, i practically couldn't sing at all. when i tried to sing, i would cough. so sad! boohoo. =x

went out with my aunt today. she's so good can!! i sort of date her out to be my walking atm machine. teeheehee. okay. we roamed about bugis, then i bought skirts. eeks. why am i doing this. why am i shopping for skirts. bleaghx. nevermind. yupp. bought some donno donno what skirt from bugis village, and another u2 skirt from seiyu (some place in bugis junction). my aunt's so nice! plus the fact that she's not rich, she's single, she's 35 (i think) but she looks young, she's much shorter than me. yepp. haha.


then later i went to meet phoebe, and she gave me 12bucks. heehee. yupp, on top of all these, my grandma blessed all her grandchildren with 10bucks. haahaa. thank God for all all of them.


gtg. cya. bye-

you are the way the truth and the life
we live by faith and not by sight for you
we're living all for you


woohoooo. camp totally rawkk man!! i must say that this camp had impacted me lots. i wanna be so filled with God's vision!! i wanna live a life just doing God's vision for me. yes. i really want to. :) have had a great time doing the preparations for games too. got to know more brothers and sisters. they are a really great bunch!


the day before camp 07/06/2004
had more than 10hours of sleep. initially was woken by the baby's cries at around 7, but went back to sleep still. so, i woke up at around 11am and cathy called me to brief me on the items to bring for the games. um. yupp. then after that i went on to washing up, so on and so forth. entertained the baby at my house, then went down and bought a masking tape for 2bucks. this is crazy. about 1/8 of my allowance is spent on it. =x yupp, then lausanne smsed me and told me that she's going to die in the mrt carrying one big bag and a big pail. haha. seems like we're in the same state. had a 10min walk to buona to meet the rest.


proceeded to the nus campsite when everyone arrived. had a really long day. actually i cannot really remember what we did. only remembered we tested out all the station games. then this ended at around 8pm. then we had our dinner. still havent return freedy the $2.50. pray i'll remember to return him during clc2. mm. shortly after we were briefed on the amusing/amazing race. had to carry our barang barangs with us cause we werent allowed to stay over at nus. =x nus so stingy can. anyway. we brought our barang barangs with us to test out the obstacle courses. blind fold tour, typhoon, suicide window, spider web, trust fall.


trust fall
i think you should know what is it. so i shall save the explanation.


blind fold tour
you're supposed to hold on to the shoulders of the person in front of you. only the leader can open his/her eyes. the rest will be blindfolded. the leader would then lead you on a tour, up slopes, down slopes, through bushes. whatever.


when we tested out this games. girls were screaming all the way. so funny. then when we were going up slope, someone gave me such a hard push. so i couldnt help but to open my eyes. it was mandy. lol. afterall, it was a great experience.


suicide window
uh. i have no idea how am i gonna explain this. but it's like so fun and funny!! david did the demostration. all our jaws dropped. shirley tried too. and mandy also tried!! haha. and her catch phrase was if i can do it everyone can do it. she's so funny. i think that was really awww.


spider
donno how to explain too.


tyhpoon
not sure how it goes. but you're supposed to pitch a tent with the materials provided.


had a lonnnnnnnnnnnnng walk out of nus. some took the taxi to hq. some went home. me and cathy then had a "romantic" time together while walking back to hq from buona vista.


then we went on to decorating the station cards and group cards. there were so so much to do. then we ended at around 2. slept at around 3. me, lau, cathy and the guys didnt bathe until the next day. hahaha. stinks.


i think i shall stop bragging. just one day and it had took up so much. i shall continue to blog later, or never!!! gtg, bye!!

went for hillsongs concert ytd. it totally rawkk man. just that there's very little songs, and most of them were worship. there were only a few praises. interestingly, some of the worship they sung, we sang during service. hmm. :) was kinda disappointed. cos i was longing for your love is beautiful. haha, anyway, i still enjoyed myself, though i was kinda tired. yupp. oh. then after that, we took a half an hour short-cut to the kallang mrt. girls were screaming all the way. ok, at least 3/4 of the journey. and liwen had to scare me with her handphone n her face. fine. "great" entertainment afterall. it makes journey more interesting. =x bleaghx.

me, angela + phoebe fled home while the rest went to eat mcdonalds i think. was tired so didnt joined them. was stoning in the mrt 3/4 of the time. missed two buses. but thank God the next one came shortly after. reached home @ about 11.45pm. bathe, drank (water), smsed, slept. a fruitful day indeed.

looking forward to.. CAMP

wah. ytd was like a sports marathon for me. had to wake up @ 6am in the morning to go for the wee kim wee badminton challenge @ upper jurong. then had bk for brunch. then proceeded to annie's hse to play basketball. the sun was like, scorching hot. then realised that six was a number far too small for us to continue the game, cause we all soon were worn out. so we went to annie's hse and slack. then we decided to take a taxi to sch for training. lol. and our hearts were like beating super fast when we saw the metre jump every one second (along clementi exit). hahaha. scary can!!.

lol. okay. then went on to training. we (sec2 badminton girls) decided to be enthu for training today. lol, because of sth that happened 2 days before). haha. training was great today. had some very funny smashing and tapping and netting thingy/training. so fun can!! haha, looking forward to the next training. mr diki, u rawkk. haha, he's our coach. i think he's the closest to the sec2 girls. he's more like a friend than a coach. we're like, alwaes teasing him, and he's stupidly crappy. haha. alrite. gtg. im looking forward to camp!! those who haven, pls sign up now!! cause the games that we're gonna have rawkk big time!! cya there!